My Last Field Report (repost)

Disclaimer: I typed this after my first year in the game, It got deleted when Nextlevelgame.net went down, however I luckily saved a copy, and now im reposting it on my blog with pictures and all, enjoy.

Intro

I was frustrated, frustrated with my finances, frustrated with women, just frustrated with my life in general. In late summer of 2008, I was dealing with a woman who I was not attracted too. I settled because I was lazy to go out and try to get with someone who I wanted. In New Years 2008, my buddies and I made a pact to go after women that we found “girlfriend” material and stop messing with “bust downs(a bust down is a hood rat or easy chick). One of my buddies found a girl In the spring of 2008 and they have been together over a year as I write this, my other buddy got hired by a hospital and was dating here and there but nothing serious in terms of relationship. Myself? Early January I went out on a date with a beautiful girl, I was so nervous because I thought she was out of my “league”. I remember before the date I did a “shot” of whiskey to calm my nerves, I was so nervous and it showed, my swagger/confidence was of kilter, needless to say to make a long story short, the girl ended up dissing me on my birthday. Not only that but the next girl I met, was even worse. I put so much pressure on myself that I wound up on the friend zone before I even met her(this was online) I fell back into an old trap and started dealing with subpar women again, and settled. Fast forward to August, I was tired of messing with a  fat crazy burned out former Vegas show girl. I read "The Game" by Neil Strauss and the book forever changed my life. However unlike Strauss I didn’t aspire to be a Pick-up-artist (PUA), I already had a frame of reference when it came to women. I had some natural buddies who introduced me to women back when I was a Simp (AFC). The book would serve not as a guide step by step but more as motivational piece to go out there and try to improve.

Lto Ucas and I hitting the field

Starting out    

I started doing my own version of a “boot camp” in the boondocks of Wisconsin. I lived in the Twin Cites but I was told “Wisconsin” had some “friendly” women. I figured why not? Perfect stomping grounds for a black male trying to polish up his game. Boy was I naïve, I started going out and was way over my head. I didn’t know a soul, when I went out I went out by myself. My first time ever I was wearing a $70 Pelle Pelle button up shirt, with some black dress pants, and dress shoes. I was way overdress. However I wasn’t going to cower, I started chatting up another black guy who had a Mohawk. By the end of the night I had free drinks bought for me courtesy of the “Mohawk” guy and his friends. I kept going out and started working on the basics that eluded me for so long, building rapport, escalation, opening, comfort, demonstrating higher value (which later on transcended to just being high value) .I started to develop a knack of “Social proof” I was natural at interacting with people around me, and just being a fun guy. My time In Wisconsin did get a tad wild. I once got drunk, courtesy of some college frat boys who bought me shot after shot, then ended up getting a blow job from a girl I met literally after only a minute. I jetted when the cops almost caught us fooling around in the parking, just to get pulled over. The cop let me go, you figure I would learn my lesson drinking and driving, sadly it wouldn’t be the last. I started looking for “Gaming” websites to work on my weaknesses. I found a bunch of PUA forums, but I couldn’t understand the jargon, eventually I found a site called SoSuave, which had a bit for everyone. I found a wingman by the name of Bilogomja, Bilo and I went out, I will never forget the first time that he and I went out. It was late, Bilo was supposed to meet me at my house and I would drive to the “Boonies”. However Bilo ran late (wouldn’t be his first time) So we met at the bar in the city, when Bilo came in, I was already in set with 4 guys who I met outside I was starting to embody what being a socially alpha male was. That night was something which not only reframed Bilo’s reality but my own. That night I went on a tare, and would talk to any girl within my vicinity. I didn’t want Bilo to think I was a chump, I wanted to impress him, but something else was happening I was being held accountable to finally approach women that I found attractive. After the night was done and I number closed the hottest girl in the bar, after smacking her and her friends ass’s simultaneously at the same time!. Bilo and I jumped up and down for joy outside the club, just elated beyond belief, like school children. However reality soon set in when the girl didn’t respond to my text. I was disappointed; I delved deeper into seduction, promising that I won’t be fooled again. I started reading “field reports” by various forum members past and present from Sexpdx, Jakethesteed, Xblitz, Master of the universe, Sheez, and of course Senor fingers too Jon024, rushingdude123, Noob, Macallik and Snowplow, the greatest gamer in sosauve history. I also started to go on the SoSuave alumni site(NLG) which had some of the vets. I would go out once or twice a week, it was hard considering that I worked 65 hours plus a week, I was becoming ragged. On top of that I wasn’t gaining the results I wanted. I was “outcome dependent” I started posting field reports with pictures in them, something very rare, few people put themselves out there, but I wanted this bad and I was willing to improve at any cost. I switched up venues and I started gaining more success in terms of getting numbers, little did I know that the next few months would toss me into a whirlwind which I had never experienced before.


December (with success comes arrogance)

One of the "Destiny's" in my first threesome

I remember going out one night, and just opening up set after set one night. There was a four set, as soon as I saw them, my energy level spiked like a Sayian’s (Dragon Ball Z). I started talking to the girls, I knew who the cock-blocker was, and I knew who my target was. I didn’t have to say anything. I was so confident, witty, and funny unlike a few months ago when I wasn't confident and clueless. Everything was flowing automatically. I had the women swoon over me, was able to isolate my girl and kiss close her(see pic). Later that night, I had two women in my bedroom, at the time I had a full size bed, but they didn’t care, all three of us engaged in one of the craziest moments in my life in a night of wanton lust. After the ménage trios, my confidence went through the roof. Not only that but I was getting dates to come in also via online and the field. I had girls coming in on a weekly basis to “hang out” or do “date night” which typically consists of us watching a movie, then making out, then sex or oral sex. I was flying high. However with success comes arrogance and I was getting pretty cocky.


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^^^yup that's me thinking I'm the shit, I was very arrogant turning that time, and an ass.

Booze was always readily available when you VIP!

There was liquor everywhere. In three months, I went from partying in the boondocks to partying in the hottest VIP’s with models. I was living the fast life; girls were abundant and with success came arrogance. One night after clubbing hard, I drove home. I wanted to stop by a McDonald’s got of the exit to late and crashed my car into a stop sign, luckily no one got hurt. I was ok thank, God. You think nearly getting killed would slow my partying down. It didn’t, I was going down a slippery slope of seduction. There was no turning back

Nefertiti

 I had three women that I was seeing. On top of that I was getting prospects in left and right. I met “Nefertiti” Or Neffe in the field earlier in the year of 2008’. However due to the distance I didn’t pursue it even though there was mutual interest. Neffe was beautiful light skinned black girl, with curvy shape; she had short hair which often got her compared to Rhianna, the singer, and a smile that could light up a whole room. When Nefertiti and I started hanging out, she wasn’t my top choice not until we started hanging out more. Most girls I hung out with, didn’t offer anything in terms of value besides sex, Nefertiti was the complete package. She would always qualify herself to me, not just by bringing desert or cooked food to my house but also through our conversations, which to me stood out the most because she was so mature for her age. She was very intelligent and also very loving and giving. We started hanging out more and more, I introduced her to my friends, and everybody liked her. It felt so right. Leaving the game initially wasn’t hard, It was a blessing actually. I was living the fast life, and I felt it was time. I had gone out so much that I was burned out chasing women in the club.  At first everything was cool but something began to shift. I had become cold; when I was a “nice guy” I was warm and friendly.  However now my attitude was “me, me, me” I was the prize as the community would say, I was the alpha male. Nefertiti would always comment how intimidated I made her feel, that no other guy ever made her feel like that (I dominated the frame). I was having issues transitioning from being single to being in a relationship. I would “push n pull” Neffe’s emotions. I always pushed and pull when being in a relationship even when I didn’t know what it meant. The relationship started to crumble, because I wasn’t honest with my self. I was talking to a girl who I met a year ago online. However I was conflicted, not because of the other girl but because my game was going sky high and here I just dropped out. The game gets you addicted to getting the girl, and my desire and quest to seduce women, In turn the game had seduced me. I was caught up in a web that a lot of gamers get caught up in. I did something I’m not proud of, to sever the relationship instead of leaving Nefertiti like a man, I invited another girl to my house and made out with her and did everything but have sex. Not being able to lie, I confessed my transgression to Nefertiti. It broke her heart, when she broke up with me, crying in her car. I was thinking to my self “Oh God what I had I done” but I was so far gone, so cold, so selfish, the game makes you that way, so you don’t get hurt, to protect your heart. I hurt the only women who genuinely cared about me, since starting this quest. After we broke up I arrogantly thought Nefertiti would take me back, but she severed all contact, it was ok at first because I was back to doing what I did best, and that was being in the field, back in the loop

Back in the loop

Trying to lose that weight

I started going out again harder than I did before; on top of that I had a new wing, who was naturally good with women. My first night going out single,  my game was sky high, the way women responded to me was crazy. I would open women in the street, they would invite me to come clubbing with them in some of the hottest clubs, I didn’t have to pay, or I would see girls and we would just make out. However reality struck soon, I missed Nefertiti. I wanted her back, the old saying “you don’t know what you have till it’s gone” rang so true. Here I had a woman who was willing to do anything and I left her due to my pride and my selfish arrogance. I started dating other women, and “spun plates” however compared to my success In December; these women didn’t hold my interest at all. You had some beautiful once but they were boring, then some that weren’t as attractive who hell were also boring. I wanted to leave “The Game” but I couldn’t because I was so entranced and seduced by seduction. I decided to turn my life around and stopped drinking for 40 days and 40 nights. I hit the field with Bilo again, my inner-confidence became stronger, I would do crazy stuff on the field by approaching women fearlessly, I didn’t have anything to lose, and on top of that I was getting better at doing street approaches as well. The problem with lot of gamers is that they use liquor as a crutch; I personally loved to use alcohol to get into a “fun state”. Going in state for me was having a drink (or two) and bumping my favorite song(at the time it was “Single” by Ne-yo), the goal was to be as positive as possible, however gaming sober; opened my eyes, I noticed how women checked me out or other guys and would look away quickly. It was amazing. After I scrapped my plates I started getting with some prettier chicks, However I didn’t give a fuck, the more successful I came the lazier my game was. I would do everything to “hook” a chick to garner her interest, but as soon as we had sex I could care less. It wasn’t all my fault, some of the girls didn’t present themselves as a challenge so it made it easier for me to let go, however I also became needy again, and my simpish behavior would creep in. I started doing a “spring training” to get my enthusiasm for the game back but whatever magic spark I had, I lost it, after my spring training I stopped writing field reports. I honestly wanted to be in a relationship again and I felt I was ready, but I was going about it the wrong way. It’s not that you can’t meet the one at a club but it’s not easy(nor realistic). Summer came about and little did I know I would enter into a slump.

The Recession (My slump)

Chilling with naturals, things like this was the "norm"

The recession not only hit the country but also hit me. I had easily gained over 25 pounds because I stopped hitting the gym due to my gaming  I met a girl who was really cool online However when I met her in person she wasn’t that attractive to me. I ended up messing with her anyway but felt guilty for doing so. I was stuck, I mean I went out but nothing was happening. The reason why I improved initially so fast was because I was willing to go out and have fun while meeting women, it was a novelty to me. However that enthusiasm I lost long ago and my passion was on “E”. Summer time has always been known for girls “just to have fun”.

I started going out again, but instead of looking to “game” I was going out just to have fun. I went out with some buddies and crazy stuff would happen, however I was tired something was messing. I was always a spiritual person; I had focused so much on myself, and improving with women. That I forgot the important things in life, like friends, family and God.  I analyzed myself and realized that I needed to make goals which involved other things besides women. On top of that the egos of the community became too much for me, a charlatan guru attacked me, because I was doing everything he preached not to do and became successful at it. I became a threat to him so to debunk me he would spread lies about me, in hopes of using me as a “front runner” to further his business when he was a fraud himself who only cared about the accolades and “props” that being a Guru garnered him. Being in the community taught me how to get the girl, how to attract her, how to get her to sleep with me, but the community didn’t teach me how to keep her once I had her. I noticed that a lot of community guys were just guys who loved to “theorize” about women and weren’t as successful as they claimed, Typically the most successful guys left the community once they became good cause they realized a lot of stuff being spewed is total bullshit. I can honestly say I did improve with women, but at what price?

In Conclusion

I wish I could end this and say I achieved everything through the community, that I set out to do. However reality is there is more to life than women. The fulfillment you get from doing what you truly love and being at peace with yourself is better than any prop or accolade you can get from a field report. Too often people are worried about what others may think about them, when they should just be worried about themselves. The key to success in life is balance, without it happiness is hard to attain, however it’s easier said then done.

Solomon